6.25.2009

I contacted him.

REFERENCE LIST
Fredrick: step brother, age fourteen/fifteen (I forget the exact age)
Dominic: step brother, age sixteen
Bill: my father (he doesn't deserve the title "dad" anymore)
Helena: my step mother


Fredrick -

I know that this message is probably the last thing that you expected to get, and I honestly am really sorry if hearing from me upsets you, but I couldn't help it... I had to at least try to make contact with you once in my life. This is your step sister, rosalie. I haven't seen you since I was in the second grade so I understand completely if you don't remember me, or the every other weekends that serena and I used to spend at bill's house. If you do, however, well... hello.

I don't really know what I'm supposed to say. All I know is that I miss you and your brother so much, and it has killed me not being a part of your life for all of these years. I never got to say goodbye to you after bill lost the custody case with serena and me. I never got to say anything. I just know that I was in like, second grade... and I went from seeing you guys every other weekend... to abruptly stopping. I'm not going to go any futher into that, though, because I fear that we were told different stories on what went down all those years ago... and I don't want to start fighting with you or dominic.

All I want, honestly, is to get to know you and your brother. I want to see how your life went, who the person is that you grew up to be. No strings attached. We don't have to meet if you don't want to. NOTHING has to happen if you don't want to. If you decide that you don't want to get to know us, even, that's fine... because I know a lot has passed. I want to be in your life... but it's up to you, fredrick. I DON'T want to force anything on you. Serena doesn't, either. We both have talked about this... and we want to make it up to you guys.

Alright. I don't have a Myspace (Obviously, since I'm on my friend's acount*), but I do have a Facebook account; Serena does as well. They're both public so you can check us out without having an account, if you decide to. I'll also give you our email addresses if you want to do it that way. If you decide that you want to meet us... I am sure that we can work that out. Serena's nineteen now (I'm sixteen), and drives, so I'm sure us getting to you won't be a problem at all. It's up to you though. I can't stress that enough.

I have a feeling that bill and helena won't be too happy about me contacting you, but if you want to tell them, go ahead. I'm prepared to get screamed at by either them or my grandmother.

MY EMAIL: [ insert email ]
MY FACEBOOK: [ insert facebook ]

SERENA'S EMAIL: [ insert email ]
SERENA'S FACEBOOK: [ insert facebook ]
(I think she has a myspace too but I don't know it)

I *think* I know dominic's myspace but I'm not completely sure so I won't send this to him... in case it turns out to be a coincidence that there's a dominic on your friend list (Yeah, I creeped around a bit. My bad. I wanted to make sure this was you). Hopefully you'll show this to him. If you don't.. shit happens. I won't be mad.



- rosalie

(Oh, btw, I found you on google. I remembered your last name. If you were wondering)




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* I sent that message on Nathaniel's myspace account because I didn't one to make a myspace purely for the reason of messaging him, and having it be all bare and creepy.

1 .commentary from the peanut gallery.:

Kate said...

I admire you so much.
Thank you for posting this.

One day, I'd like to have the bravery to send something quite similar to someone in particular.

I hope things work out with your stepbrothers!